Currently Till We Have Faces: A Myth Retold By C.S. Lewis see related

So...I'm starting to think that often I (or maybe other people--not just me??) want to be blessed (with a job, with a spouse, with a better house, with a dog...etc), but at the same time am hit with the fact that blessings are not necessarily freebies.  I don't think God says, "Here you go:  now just sit back and enjoy."  I think it's more along the lines of "Enjoy it and learn the responsibility that comes with the blessing." 

Case in point: my job.  I few weeks ago I started my first full-time job. It is truly a God-orchestrated blessing, both financially and experience-wise.  I'm finally back to teaching ESL.  But what have I been doing for the past week? Complaining. Complaining: that I have a job that goes home with me; that planning for daily classes is overwhelming; that it is more work than I expected; that I'm tired; that it's not as easy teaching new stuff as it is teaching stuff where I had experience and was comfortable in my role.  All ideas that have been on "repeat" in my head for the past weeks. It's quite pathetic how long this list could be. I have not really been content or really been grateful. 

In sum: I've been frustrated that blessings require hard work. 

Instead I need to accept the blessing and the responsibility, trusting that doing so will cause growth and that too will turn out to be a blessing.